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Jan. 6th, 2009

  • 4:00 PM
Kero
I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

Mobile posting

  • Nov. 6th, 2008 at 4:50 PM
Kero

Of course, as soon as I let my paid account lapse I get a mobile posting client. I can post text, but no pics. Hmm what to do.

In other news, I have to say I was very dissappointed to see prop 8 pass. In the midst of a sea of blue, we gave this glaring Red victory.

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What I'm trying to learn, Part 2.

  • Sep. 3rd, 2008 at 10:46 PM
Awesome
For those of you that remember... or scroll down two entries in my neglected journal I made this post

http://afstyles.livejournal.com/95375.html

With this video:



I just finished. Six months later

Did you know?

  • Mar. 6th, 2008 at 11:24 AM
Friendship
 It turns out, you can't take responsibility for someone else's happiness.

Via XKCD: http://xkcd.com/383/

What I'm Trying to Learn

  • Feb. 21st, 2008 at 2:47 PM
Kero


Its a very interesting situation when you can look at where you are and see EXACTLY where you need to go in learning something.  Its one thing to say, OK, I need to learn all of these notes for my exam tomorrow.  Its another to say, I need to learn 2,000 pictographs and readings to be considered literate.

These are the 1,945 Joyo Kanji.  To read the newspaper, I will have to learn all of these.

I can write and tell you the meaning of maybe 500 of them.  I can read and recite the Japanese for even less of them.  For example, I could point at a sentence and tell you, those Kanji mean roasted charcoal.  I couldn't tell you, how to say it in Japanese.  I just know what it means.

To get an idea, here's all 1,945 Joyo Kanji in 10 minutes.



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joyo_kanji
I can tell you that the Kanji on the wiki page is Kaku.  Which means "to write."  I think its a nice little touch.

Dear Baby

  • Feb. 3rd, 2008 at 10:05 PM
Me
Dear Baby, I hope someday somebody wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face. They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms and hold on tight, without an ounce of selfishness in it.
-Jenna

Exercise?

  • Jan. 29th, 2008 at 4:16 PM
Argh
Ouch, my chest is sore from pushups.  Mainly the area where arms meet chest...

That's a clear sign that I shouldn't do them anymore.

They obviously hurt me.
 

So Tiffany Gave Me This Awesome Bag

  • Jan. 17th, 2008 at 8:39 PM
Kero
OK. So Tiffany sent me a care package a while back. And it was pretty much the best ever.

-I got some semi erotic post card flyers from clubs.
-Some Alienware swag.
-Some cool handmade magnets which now grace the front of my fridge in the shape of a smiley face.
-And a courier bag. She actually made this.

I keep it right next to all my video game systems so everybody can see how awesome it is.

Also, I have gone back to short hair.

shoulder bag

new style

More pics of bag and hair behind the cut. Including before and after.
Check me out )

Review

  • Nov. 13th, 2007 at 8:39 PM
Me
I had my review at work today. I think it went well. I guess I was nervous for no reason.

Oh, also - they didn't tell me I had to cut my hair. I just have to pull it back. Which I was planning on doing anyway.

Also, Tiff Rocks.

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iPhone: What does it really cost?

  • Jan. 14th, 2007 at 11:28 PM
Let them eat cake
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* $640 Phone - $599 plus tax (~8%)
* $60/mo Voice Plan - cheapest plan with unlimited nights and weekends
* $40/mo MEdia Max 3000 Bundle - includes 3000 texts and unlimited MediaNet which I assume will work as the browse function on the iPhone
* $8/mo Fees - lovely fees

So doing the math, and looking at a year of usage on this device, the total comes to:

$1,936


So what does that equate to in other items?


* 387 Starbucks grande drinks
* 2,129 McDonalds hamburgers
* 968 rides on the NYC Subway
* A round-trip ticket to Japan from the USA
* A new LCD 42" tv with enough money left over to buy all 5 seasons of 24 on DVD
* A Mac Powerbook
Now this is where it gets interesting... here are some other things to remember not included in my calculations:

* The phone technically is a sunk cost, and so year two will be less expensive. But my numbers are for the first year of ownership and the phone is a one-time cost, not an amortized cost.
* This does not take into account any media purchases and naturally you will purchase media - tack on another $500-1000 for the year
* A good percentage of Americans have poor credit and will require a deposit to Cingular to get started
* If you are already a Cingular customer, the upgrade to the iPhone will cost a bit more. For example, when I inquired about the Blackjack, I was told it would be $600 to upgrade
* My voice figures are on a 900 minute plan, many use a lot more than that
* Comparisons are made to the iPod - how many iPods are owned by people below the age of 18, if so, say bye bye to the iPhone unless parent signs. Not sure how many parents outside of the MTV Super Sixteen crew will do this

Source

And you know, after all of that. I still want it. I need electronic toys. I just need them. To be fair though, I use my current iPod every day. I've had it for a few years so its getting a little worn out. I'm probably due for an upgrade... unfortunately that may not be enough to justify me shelling out massive amounts of money just for a phone.

It doesn't even get to Japan until 2008! So, really its probably not even an option for me.

I still want it. おねがい!
Steve Jobs unveils the iPhone on SNL )

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I Gots Me a Wii!

  • Jan. 9th, 2007 at 11:59 PM
Me
This is a bit late in coming, but I got me a wii! I've had it for a couple weeks but I'm just getting around now to posting the pictures. It's a really cool system. I love the unique game play. More pictures and friend code behind the cut!

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Oh ya baby, hot Wii action )

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Oh Those Crazy Kids

  • Dec. 27th, 2006 at 8:59 AM
Delicious tea? ... or DEADLY poison

There are two students in the teachers office taking a test for one of my JTEs and they happen to be sitting right next time.  One of them turns to me and we start having a conversation in Japanese.  And of course, the first thing he asks me is

"Girlfriend?  Do you have a girlfriend?"

I laugh and tell him, "No, I don't have a girlfriend."  Then I follow that up with, "And you, do you have a girlfriend?"  And he smiles, points to his friend sitting next to him, and proudly says that's his girlfriend.

At which point his friend looks up and says, "NO no!" And the other boy says, yes!

I laugh and respond, "Well that's... interesting, and cute."

They laugh.


Ohh those crazy kids, what will they say next.

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I Always Thought This Was Lame

  • Dec. 27th, 2006 at 12:22 AM
Sleepy
I've heard this before. I think I heard it at my graduation in fact. Its one of those generic popular pieces of advice you hear constantly, like "Oh the places you'll go," by Dr. Seuss.

But, it never really Hit Me until just now... and I don't know how I should feel about it. Is it too late to take some of this advice?

Cut for Advice )

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Overheard

  • Dec. 24th, 2006 at 10:20 AM
Kero
Queer: So, yeah, I told him I cheated on him.
Fag hag: Oh... So you don't really love him, then.
Queer: You think so?
Fag hag: Oh, darling. When you really love someone...
Queer: I know, I know, you don't cheat on them.
Fag hag: No! When you really love someone, you cheat and never tell.
Queer: You're so ahead of me.

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Forbidden Fruit

  • Dec. 23rd, 2006 at 1:26 AM
Kero
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Penny Arcade

Last week I gave another "Mac lesson," this time to my friend Nadin.

Its funny how every time one of the JETs is new to a Mac, they come to me for help. J.R., can you give me a mac lesson? J.R. how do I use my web cam?! J.R. help me set my preferences.

And they are always... quiet about it. Like, its a secret... that they can't let anybody know.

Good News / Bad News

  • Dec. 15th, 2006 at 10:48 AM
Delicious tea? ... or DEADLY poison
  • Good News

So yesterday I find out I have holidays that I don't have to use vacation for.  Too bad nobody told me about them earlier and they weren't on my calender.  If I had known I got these 6 days off, I could have gone home for Christmas.  This is another example of the communication gap at my school.  However, in the end its still 6 days off over the winter holiday, and I'll take it.

  • Bad News

Today, along with  Mon. - Wed. of next week we have "Special Schedule."  I just found this out.  One of my JTE's pulled out the special schedule sheet that all the teachers received a copy of (except me) and found my name on the work list.  I have no classes to teach on special schedule.

Not one.  Zero.

So, that means I have nothing to do for the next four days.  Well more than that really, since I'll probably work over the rest of the break even when students aren't there.  I can stay home, but I have to use vacation days.  And screw that.  If I have no work, they should just let me stay home.  Why drag me all the way to school so I can just sit at my desk.   I think I'm going to start bringing my personal laptop.  Its so much more conducive to creative work.  I'll probably get my video lessons created, then just play on it for 7 hours a day after that until classes start again.

The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny

  • Dec. 13th, 2006 at 9:43 PM
Kero
I like how somehow Aaron Carter, Bill S. Preston, and Theodore Logan all count as super heroes... or "good guys" at least.

Oh and the Back To The Future Delorean as well?

WTF mate?

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Oh noes! Old Age!!1one! =/

  • Dec. 4th, 2006 at 9:12 PM
Me
So in about 3 hours, I will no longer be 22 years old.

Its gonna be a really long time till my age is a palindrome again. That kind of sucks.

Least year, when I turned 22, I pretty much felt the good part of my life was over. It was no longer at the beginning of my life, it was just "the rest" of my life after this.

But looking back on it, 22 is still the year after 21, thats not so bad right? But wtf is 23? Its nothing, thats what it is! You don't gain any new rights or maturities, and its not even just one year older than 21.

****

In other news, I did not get a Wii. I was supposed to go with two buddies of mine to wait in line. Launch day in Japan was Saturday December 2nd. At the midyear conference on Friday, my buddies tell me they changed their minds and aren't getting one. But no worries, they'll still go with me and give me a ride!

Then at the end of the conference, "Ya, I can't give you a ride" he says.

They want to get drunk. Even though this was planned for over a month, my friend with the car backs out because its Friday night and he wants to be able to drink.

I wasn't mad. They drink every weekend. But my feelings were hurt.

I know we've all only been friends four months, but you know, when somebody makes plans like that, I usually expect them to follow through. And they knew this was something that I was looking forward to. So what it felt like to me was he was saying, the promise I made to you isn't important enough for me to not drink one evening.

People just make me sad sometimes the way they let you down.

That's all.

An Amusing Anecdote

  • Nov. 23rd, 2006 at 12:33 AM
Me
Security Question
Penny Arcade

Which brings me to the point of today's post. I started playing Magic Online and I was having trouble setting up my account online so I had to call Customer Service. I wait till its 7AM Stateside and place my call, hit a few automated responses and in less than a minute I have James from customer service on the line asking me how he can assist me today.

I tell him about my difficulties buying cards for my account and he asks me for the typical information. What's my name? What's my account user name? What address did I have registered? Then Finally, he says:

"I'm going to need you to answer your security question."

I'm thinking... "Security question? I set this up 2 months ago and I just now got around to using it, I don't have any idea what I set for a security question."

He continues speaking, and your secret question that I'm going to need you to answer, "Nick has a small, what?"

"Umm err, oh gawd." I start laughing. I'm thinking, wow... I didn't... did I? Did I pick something really zen? I wouldn't say Nick has a small ego... or Nick has a small car... no I'm not that lucky. Knowing what I have to say...

"Is it, a small penis?

"Thats correct."

I really have to plan better with these security questions.

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Oh, I Know You're Jealous

  • Nov. 20th, 2006 at 11:49 PM
Gir
Mario Mushroom


So look what I won after bowling tonight. My very own Mario Super Mushroom.. Its awesome right?

Also, my hair is getting shaggy. I'm thinking of growing it out.

I should really consider taking down that poster behind me and putting up one of my own...

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