I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

For those of you that remember... or scroll down two entries in my neglected journal I made this post

http://afstyles.livejournal.com/95375.html

With this video:



I just finished. Six months later

 It turns out, you can't take responsibility for someone else's happiness.

Via XKCD: http://xkcd.com/383/

Dear Baby, I hope someday somebody wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face. They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms and hold on tight, without an ounce of selfishness in it.
-Jenna

Ouch, my chest is sore from pushups.  Mainly the area where arms meet chest...

That's a clear sign that I shouldn't do them anymore.

They obviously hurt me.
 

OK. So Tiffany sent me a care package a while back. And it was pretty much the best ever.

-I got some semi erotic post card flyers from clubs.
-Some Alienware swag.
-Some cool handmade magnets which now grace the front of my fridge in the shape of a smiley face.
-And a courier bag. She actually made this.

I keep it right next to all my video game systems so everybody can see how awesome it is.

Also, I have gone back to short hair.





More pics of bag and hair behind the cut. Including before and after.
( Check me out )

I had my review at work today. I think it went well. I guess I was nervous for no reason.

Oh, also - they didn't tell me I had to cut my hair. I just have to pull it back. Which I was planning on doing anyway.

Also, Tiff Rocks.

* $640 Phone - $599 plus tax (~8%)
* $60/mo Voice Plan - cheapest plan with unlimited nights and weekends
* $40/mo MEdia Max 3000 Bundle - includes 3000 texts and unlimited MediaNet which I assume will work as the browse function on the iPhone
* $8/mo Fees - lovely fees

So doing the math, and looking at a year of usage on this device, the total comes to:

$1,936


So what does that equate to in other items?

* 387 Starbucks grande drinks
* 2,129 McDonalds hamburgers
* 968 rides on the NYC Subway
* A round-trip ticket to Japan from the USA
* A new LCD 42" tv with enough money left over to buy all 5 seasons of 24 on DVD
* A Mac Powerbook
Now this is where it gets interesting... here are some other things to remember not included in my calculations:

* The phone technically is a sunk cost, and so year two will be less expensive. But my numbers are for the first year of ownership and the phone is a one-time cost, not an amortized cost.
* This does not take into account any media purchases and naturally you will purchase media - tack on another $500-1000 for the year
* A good percentage of Americans have poor credit and will require a deposit to Cingular to get started
* If you are already a Cingular customer, the upgrade to the iPhone will cost a bit more. For example, when I inquired about the Blackjack, I was told it would be $600 to upgrade
* My voice figures are on a 900 minute plan, many use a lot more than that
* Comparisons are made to the iPod - how many iPods are owned by people below the age of 18, if so, say bye bye to the iPhone unless parent signs. Not sure how many parents outside of the MTV Super Sixteen crew will do this

Source

And you know, after all of that. I still want it. I need electronic toys. I just need them. To be fair though, I use my current iPod every day. I've had it for a few years so its getting a little worn out. I'm probably due for an upgrade... unfortunately that may not be enough to justify me shelling out massive amounts of money just for a phone.

It doesn't even get to Japan until 2008! So, really its probably not even an option for me.

I still want it. おねがい！
( Steve Jobs unveils the iPhone on SNL )